I opened the door and everything went pitch black. I walked in and suddenly my legs locked up and I couldn’t move anymore. I knew if I took another step something would happen to me. I would end up stranded in a deep hole only to find myself drowning in my own tears. I mean what’s going on? I thought for sure if I took off and got away from everyone I would be safe. My life is a mess and the reality is no one knows it. I’ am not a very good artist, but I can paint a pretty face that tells a story that ends well. The truth is I feel dirty, ugly, and useless and at times I want to start from scratch. Maybe that’s what I need to do. I will pack a bag leave this place I call home and get new friends and never talk to my family and get a job at a small coffee shop somewhere in Paris. Yeah, that’s it. Sounds good to me. Its all coming together my life will be just the way I have……Wait what am I thinking. That would never work, my luck is so terrible that the very evil that haunts me here will buy a first class ticket to destroy my life. At that point my legs unlock and I’ am able to move again and I start to take a step into reality. Now I’ am in a huge room, one wall is painted with the words “ I LOVE YOU”. Who me? No that’s not possible, someone cannot possibly love me. On another wall reads “Wonderfully Made”. UMMM come on now I’ am not as wonderful as you might think. I have done things that would make people never want to talk to me. The next wall has a giant picture of Earth on it and reads “ World Changer”. I wonder whom that is for, because there is no way anyone would ever count on me to do that. Might as kill me now, because if hope rest in my hands the world is doomed. I begin to turn to the next wall and there is no words, but a giant mirror that reaches corner to corner, but I don’t see my physical self, it’s a silhouette that is filled in with many words of love.
The question that ponders deep in our hearts is can someone really love us. Well yes, I believe 100% in my heart that God loves each and every one of us no matter what harm we have produced or how worthless we feel. You do not need to feel ugly because you were meant for so much more. It is true you are wonderfully made, “I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well ”. I promise you are much more needed than you might believe. Life takes us on this roller coaster of a ride and often we feel useless and the exact opposite of wonderful. Truth is God sees so much in you.
You are so loved, I know its weird to think that someone could possibly love pedophiles, murderers, rapists, thieves, liars, prostitutes, drug addicts, homosexuals, homophobes, alcoholics, child abusers, porn addicts, and racists. The reality is if you take every one of those words and bring them to God all he see’s are his children. No difference at all just people of worth when in reality we feel worthless. He loves us all the same, none greater and none any less. If we are being honest with our selves each one of us has done some pretty rotten things. None of us are perfect; in fact we will never be close to perfect. But Jesus allows us to be born into righteousness.
I believe fully with my heart that you all possess the ability to change the world. The crazy thing is that God wants to partner with you in doing this. He is the creator of the universe and I believe if he really wanted to he could snap his fingers and things would be the way he would like it to be. But that would be selfish, The Jesus I love and God I follow is a loving God. With that he allows us to partner with him and build a relationship with him. He allows us to be World Changers. That’s what my heart desires to do. To change the world in the name of Jesus.
Typically the image we see in a mirror isn’t exactly as we would like it to be. Maybe our eyes are not the right color our nose is too big our head to small our waist too large. God sees a mirror painted with Love. His child. His friend. His creation. His Joy. His story. His disciple. His partner. You are everything. You are so incredibly loved and needed. Never feel ugly because you were meant to be something to somebody. You may not know it, but its true you are a beautiful creation.
A Man Chasing His Dreams